=A View Through the Window=

Anything But Ordinary

Hellluuuu?
I fear you may have given up hanging about in wait ... Perhaps joined the circus leaving me behind.
Anybody still there?
It's me. Zu.
Back. Here. Still.

Not really gone away. More like locked out. I was here, circling madly banging on the door but trapped outside in a cyber vortex and unable to find a way out of there or into where I wanted to go ... which was simply here to post something -- anything -- to tell you that I had not fallen the way of the dinosaurs ::SIGH:: I didn't think it was that much to ask of the techno gods. But apparently so. I could not even leave comments or find my email. Long story. To say I am not very computer savvy is an understatement of grandiose proportion. Poor Elsa my amazing iMac. So forgiving of my treatment. I put her through too much in the hot humid weather of this summers heat wave and then blamed it all on her when everything began to read ERROR right and left in big red letters. (::deep apologies:: to Elsa of whom had little or at least ALMOST nothing to do with what happened. She is feeling better now.) Only later did I find that it was a combination of things and one incredibly obstinate AOL cookie hiding on my hard drive that started it all.

AOL ... Grrrr. Bad.
(Computer nerds good! Thanks P -- said self proclaimed nerd)

As for the blogging and website building ... Many things have happened since we last had a chat. If you have emailed me ... Please try again! Please Please PLEASE! I have lost most of all things saved. This includes addresses. I have now gotten this situation well on the way to being straightened out. I ::gulp:: hope ::still shaky on this one:: I have set up SQUIRREL MAIL (I kid you not! That's what Dreamhost calls their email program!) My former email was being routed through AOL & mostly misterpeared into a cyberspace blackhole ... Unknown to where it went or if it shall ever be found again. Fair warning ... Squirrel Mail is ... well, slow & squirrely. It does as promised & squirrels things away. Currently it sometimes hides email from me for a couple of days before it appears in the inbox. Not always, just sometimes. Great big funny at my expense I guess ... I can just picture the little beasties snorting & guffawing (because the mail is probably right in front of me) ... Clutching bellies with tiny paws while they lay on their backs & huge tears roll down their cheeks. I hope to reroute things elsewhere as a backup which will end the games. Everyone cross your fingers for me?

Amongst many wonderfully delightful things going on & the couple of icky NOT fair things that have recently happened (withdrawal from blogging is NOT fun), the worst happened Thursday morning and knocked me over into a crumpled puddle of tears freeing my time to sit and do nothing but stare into space (as I simply could not do anything but cry -- I will tell all when I can bear to write about it) ... So I chose to stare into Elsa's brain with mine, finally figuring out the problem of my not getting into typepad. Okay, I might have had a bit (errr -- a LOT) of help from the computer whiz-kids at Typepad, Dreamhost, and from a dear friend that came out to the studio to "fix that damn blog thing so I can read about how you tick again." Hummmm ::grin:: (He also told me to update my music list ::hee:: Yeah. Too bad. James Blunt ... Stays on the play list.)

So there you have it. What a way to start a blog. Write a few posts then ... Disappear. But admit it. It's intriguing, no? Oh come on you peeeeeples ... By now you MUST have figured out that I wholeheartedly feel the song which says:

"To walk within the lines, would make my life so boring."

And ... My life? Anything but Ordinary! Not boring. I guess I'm out to prove it.

=^..^= love zU

When you want to test the depth of a streamDon't use both feet

I am just getting started with this yummy blog thingie ... Such fun it promises to be! I did put links to my other websites, but as you might have found, they aren't all working yet. I just sort of jumped in with both feet even though I wasn't quite ready and will add things as I can. Promise.

Is it confusing to have links to sites there & not working I wonder? Oh well. There they are for you to feel curiosity about. Before I began this blog I had rolled the risks of starting ahead of schedule around in my head & asked myself, What is the consequence of doing nothing? Then a friend said just the right thing at just the right time. She said I wasn't alone in my fears and to just leap (bughugs Sandy) & so I have. I chose to launch the blog, play it day to day, play it by ear ... Working on the missing pieces as I go along.

Now, I understand that risk is the possibility of losing something, but it also gives the possibility of gaining something you truly value. Something you really want & need in your life. It offers future possibilities! If you want to move forward you are going to have to take a risk.

So in other words, I figured if I want to make changes in my life, if I want to overcome procrastination, self-doubt and fear, if more than anything else I aspire to live my dream, then I have to take the risk of turning the potential of opportunity into reality. And so ::SPLASH:: Both feet into the water. Because I think it is not what you get from the risk-taking but what you become because of taking it.

I do apologize for the missing pieces you find. I know how disappointing it can be to anticipate something and then be told you must wait. Never give up on me! Although it may take time to finish everything, I will finish ... & I promise to make it worth the wait. Meanwhile, you will find tidbits of my progress here. Stop by. Read. Enjoy. Click the links. One day ::MaGicLy:: with one click of a mouse you will be whisked away to an enchanted world. A world even beyond this crazy blog. One that exists between real and imagine. Where faeries live in the cupboards & mice live in rolltop desks & have shoppes in glass slippers. A place where the Blue Bird Cafe really is for the birds, and baby squirrels sleep with ghost kittens in baskets. A place where everyone is welcomed. No questions asked.

I hope you will visit.

Until you can, until I can find enough cyber faerie dust to transport you all there at once ... Here I am. Standing up to my knees in the stream. Building houseboats for faeries at the waters edge & hanging bells in all the tree limbs I can reach. Taking in each moment for the gift that it is. And probably more often than not, I'll be taking risks. Yeppers. I'm running with scissors.

=^..^= Love zU